I've had a busy couple of days lately. I've been going t the gym, as per schedule. The first time I almost fainted lol.. Yes its been a long time since I've had some proper exercise. But the last two sessions were really good Mashallah. Its really good to finally get some physical activity in. I forgot how refreshing and energising it feels. I used to do it all the time. But then it just stopped. I did some cardio and Zumba last night. I loved the Zumba. Its been a while since I did any structured classes. It realy made me reminisce about those folklor days (Bosnian folkloric dancing). I had a lot of fun and with the cardio after, it really made a good workout. I'm looking forward to doing my strength training on Wednesday Inshallah. So far I've been mainly doing my legs. And even more-so I'm looking forward to being healthy again and gaining my fitness, strength and confidence back Inshallah. At the beginning it was about the weight. But to be honest that's not the thing thats motivating me anymore. I just want the health and confidence that comes along with it. There was a time in my life when I was healthy and it felt amazing. Inshallah I will be able to get there again. Afterall - you have to take care of yourself so that you can take care of everyone else.
I have my first class of the semester at uni tomorrow. Inshallah I'll get there in time after gym. I have quite a bit to prepare today. I've been putting it off the last couple of days. But I'm only doing two subjects this semester so Inshallah it won't take too long. If worse comes to worse, I'll just prepare for tomorrow's subject since there's no Thursday tutorials in the first week and I can finish everything off then.
I've also been babysitting. I took Armina out to the park yesterday morning. She's such a darling Mashallah. I took a couple of photos too.
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| My days out with Armina :) |
I've been trying to wake up early these last few days in the hope of better nights' sleep. I've made a promise not to sleep past 8 no matter what time I actually fall asleep. Either that, or I just stay up after Fajr. I usually read the Qur'an after I pray untill the sun rises, and then I'd get sleepy and fall asleep till 11-ish. But now if I do fall asleep I make sure its only until 8. It's been really hard but I must say it's kinda working. Combined with the gym I get pretty flat out by 8/9pm and I take my sleeping pills and lay down. Mashallah I fall alseep withing 1-2 hours (which is amazing for me - usually I try forcing myself to sleep for 6 hrs on average before I doze off. And that's only if I doze off.)
But Alhamdulillah...
I've also been talking to Mhd's lil sister quite a bit lately. Mashallah she's really nice. She reminds me of a lot of my friends in Sydney. It's really good to have a good muslim sister to talk to. It's great to have someone who understands what its like to be a practicing sister here in Australia. Most of my friends are muslim, but unfortunately Bosnian people aren't very religious. So once I covered and stopped doing a lot of things I used to, it became really hard to socialise. I dunno, people just look at me differently now I guess. And we just grew apart. I still haven't found hardly any sisters who I can relate to. Basically my friend H is the only one I can talk openly to about life and religion. I really miss my sydney friends. So for me even one new sister is a huge blessing. And now I will have even more sisters Alhamdulillah.
Oh and one more thing... When I was talking to her I heard her kids asking "is it aunty?? Is it aunty??" And it hit me. I'm and aunty all over again :) I have quite a few more nephews and nieces than I'm used to. I'm here falling in love with one and then all of a sudden I have more gorgeous little children calling me Aunty. Mashallah. It brings a big fat smile to my face.
And then I realised that I'm getting a whole new family along with a husband. And they are all soooo looking ofrward to meeting me. They are not just Mhd's brothers and sisters, but they already see me as a sister too. And the more I speak to his sister (we will call her Lil L, or just L) the more comfortable I feel about this new family and the more I want to meet them. Inshallah It will all go well.
But anyhow like I said, I have quite a lot to get through today. And not much time to do it in. So I'll leave you for now and get back to it Inshallah.
Salam
